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50 Years In An Invisible Jail

July 24, 20182 min read

For 50 years his body and soul harbored the trauma of seeing his parents’ heads battered & bloody and his brother’s knees crushed into the dashboard – he had tried therapy, meditation, & prayer – nothing helped for long.

Why was this so deeply ingrained?

His memory was accompanied by excruciating pain from his own severely mangled leg. A double whammy.

Ray was 10 years old when the accident happened. Now he is 60.

For 50 years he has been held hostage by the randomness of Post-Traumatic Stress

Yesterday, it hit him again and he grabbed the porch post. Trying to hold onto something solid while the wave of emotion and pain ripped him from the present and forced him to relive the confusion & pain of those moments. Moments that stretched into an ambulance ride from hell, as no air cast could support his leg over the bumps in the road. An Ambulance driver in tears, apologizing for the need to drive faster if they were to have a chance of arriving in time to save his life and his father’s.

Yesterday, he was defenseless against the attack from his own mind.

Today, he is free.

The mental & emotional “trash” left from those events has been taken out, once and for all.

Watching him walk out of the training room, I felt a wave of gratitude and renewed determination. I will continue to conquer my own fear of being seen on a stage if it means that I will have a chance to help one more person free themselves from the invisible jail of the post-traumatic mind.

What's holding you back? What "jail" has been created in your mind? We all have them. Is yours simple, like my fear of stage speaking – needing only a powerful why to move you forward, or is yours more like Ray's – lurking in the background, ready to suck the joy out of your day?

Don't let an invisible jail of mental & emotional blocks hold you hostage any longer. Reach out, there are people waiting to help you.

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Jackie Simmons

Jackie Simmons is the mother of three grown girls, grandmother of four teenage boys, and the director of the Teen Suicide Prevention Society. On her journey she spoke on a TEDx stage, wrote 8 international number one best-selling books, hosted a radio show and podcast, and became a Chancellor Mentor with GIVERS University. Jackie believes in tackling complex and challenging topics and making sense out of them. When you work with Jackie, she’s going to offer you some different thought processes. Jackie always shares alternatives to get you unstuck, find out what’s true and what’s not true – spot the elephant in the room – so that you can have what you want and what you deserve. Jackie believes you deserve to experience life, and yourself, as amazing every day. As the director of the Teen Suicide Prevention Society, Jackie knows life doesn’t always give us times to experience ourselves as amazing. Sometimes, life hands us the opposite. On April 1, 2020, Jackie and her daughters co-founded the non-profit, Teen Suicide Prevention Society and launched the mission to break the silence on suicide. The mission has grown to include three books, two pure-prevention programs, and "The Talk That Saves Lives" which Jackie presented at TEDx TenayaPaseo in Las Vegas.

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